So how's the test going? Results so far.
I thought I might be bored, that the country would turn out to be a little bit too countrified for me, and I expected that it would soon - to put it bluntly - get on my citified nerves. There have been moments of that, long days in January when him and me have looked at each other and thought the same dark, unspeakable, unwriteable thoughts. But, to tell you a truth that many of you already know, it also isn't much cop waking up at three in the morning in a Manchester winter and remembering that there's still 6 hours to go before sunrise and then only another 6 before sunset. So yes, I have been a bit bored sometimes but actually, at the risk of sounding like a bore, that isn't such a bad thing. I'm also a writer and am having a go at a novel and the slow days, the lack of distraction, and the silence, make it a lot easier to focus, to work longer, to go deeper.
There's something else that's harder to describe. I feel more private here than in the city, unwatched, unnoticed. Yet at the same time, there's also a greater feeling of being - [and here's the problem of how to express this without sounding like a bighead arsehole as one of my Manc friends would say] - of being significant. Not important or special, but just a person, alive. Here, where there are so few people, and where the really important beings are the trees, most of which are much bigger and far longer-living than me, and where the stars and the galaxies can actually be seen blazing in the pitch-dark sky, to be just a small anonymous human being can feel [sometimes, almost] like enough.
On the other hand, let's get real. This being-in-the-country lark isn't exactly isolated. Here I am on my laptop, on t'internet, plugged into to the hivemind of the world. At our leaving party, two friends gave us a webcam so we could Skype them, while others made sure we had their latest mobile numbers and emails. Another, calmer, friend asked, with heavy irony, How many different means of communication do you really need? Bring it on, I thought.
For instance, today I've had an average number of electronic experiences. Let me list them for you:
1] Two texts, one from a friend, the other from the present Mr MancinFrance, who happens to be Mr MancinManc for a few days.
2] A landline phone call from the estate agent who is looking after our house in Manchester.
3] A comment on the blog.
4] Various emails - some from family and friends, but lots from ticket touts and people
pretending to be banks. Also at least three a day from Amazon, but they can contact me anytime. I love you Amazon.
5] Not to mention the Google ads that turn up alongside my
emails which are annoying and bloody brilliant. An email about my blog posting called: Why am I here?, triggered half a dozen ads for books and helplines for suicidal people. I also get a lot of ads for lady flying instructors. Haven't worked that one out yet.
And this village may look all ancient stone and mossy roofs but there are plenty of satellite dishes and excellent internet access. The area also has a good website in both French and English.
This isn't real isolation. Without all these ways of connecting with people, without being able to get books through the post, without being able to speak to you here, the city in me might rebel, despite the wonderful trees and the brilliant stars.
3 comments:
Spring has sprung off to another continent. I'm here in my office, heating on full blast, enormous fleece trapping my body heat, lights blocking out the dark, dim, dreary, dull, damp Ashton Old Road, ready for another day of hassle and hustle in East Manchester. In an attempt not to get sucked into romantic dreams of rural life, I resolved to read Reasons Not to Move to the Country: One Woman's Calamitous Attempt to Live the Rural Dream by Judy Rumbold that was mentioned in Saturday's Guardian. http://www.amazon.co.uk/Reasons-Not-Move-Country-Calamitous/dp/1904977936 Now you've made it all seem so attractive again! Feelings of significance are top! Jo x
Great to hear from you Jo. I'll look forward to reading the article. I need to have positive reasons on the city side too - the 'romantic country' stuff is everywhere and I love cities too - nearly all my friends live there for one very good reason!
I am having a very slow, no distration type of day and thank the Goddess I can now ring up Jo and get a Dutch and German beer in a bar that is open and a curry next door. Your MancinManc spoke of changed cooking and eating experiences, can yous Manc be a bit Franc in Manc-land? apairoteefs and a bit of tree lovin sound bon to me.
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